Ego

I laid down my pride to write about this.. Yet the very truth itself eluded me..I couldn't reach a conclusion. My mind was spiraling.
I was wondering whether I changed at all.. I was once an obnoxious kid, arrogant, over confident, no humility, selfish, double-faced.

Alright.. There are a lotta people whom I've hurt in my life. Being ego and arrogant, and sarcastic over every comments they made. Perhaps, I thought I would not need them, so even if they finally decided not to ever see my fucking face again I wouldn't even care.

Upon reaching UM and realizing the stupidity of local residents, I could not help but to think back those friends that I've hurt. I did some good deeds here (things like helping the blind to cross the road) and no one knows. Friends here are like.. shit. Nothing can compare to your ex schoolmates, ex classmates, ex those-who-fell-for-you, ex football pals...etc..

In class, I arrogantly ignored XXXX XXXXX XXXX and made him a laughing stock. He probably knew it but I didn't care.
Also, XXXXX XXXX was orally abused by me although I was the lil' one. Also there were cases where I was double-faced, selfish, over confident.

Now, after 3 years in HELL, I realized that my confidence has ceased a lil, and of course sarcasm as well. I became more polite (compared to the old Malcolm) but still working on it, and my language became softer(hard language is like: why do I have to care if you get hungry? It has nothing to do with me). But there is 1 thing I will not let go: my ego. Horatio has it, Bezita has it, Christiano Ronaldo has it, and I shall keep it. :P

why did I change? Because I realized that the people that I once hurt, either by sarcasm, arrogance, selfishness, double-faced were the one that I would really miss for the rest of my life. Yes, YOU are very important!

people, I am sorry for what I've done in the past.




*now I immediately pick up my ego and say NO MORE APOLOGIES FROM ME!*

Malcolm
=)

My DSLR and Pangolin..

Digital Single-Lens Reflex Camera, that's what they call it.

I bought a Nikon D60, with a AF18-55mm lens.



alright let's forget the technical cuz I'ma newbie >_<

anyway stumbled upon an article in Nat Geo yesterday regarding Pangolin.
Google that up if you dont even know what a Pangolin is...

Anyway this is a pangolin.


It's a scaly animal like an armadillo(google that up if you don't know tat too), and it's now being threatened by human activities including poaching and deforestation. Because of growing demand for pangolin meat and scales, the toothless creature is now being hunted to the edge of extinction.

This animal is native to the Indian subcontinent, Asia and Africa. In China, this animal is particularly prized for its meat and scale. The sad fact is that pangolin mothers typically produce just one pup per litter, and only few survives to adulthood.



July 14, 2009--A rare pangolin fetus floats in soup in Indonesia in 2008. Some practitioners of Asian traditional medicine believe pangolin-fetus soup increases a man's virility. (photos and information courtesy of NatGeo.com)


A poacher in a pangolin-processing house prepares to boil a carcass in Indonesia in 2008. The pangolin will then be de-scaled and gutted for freezing and shipping into China, the primary market for pangolin products.

Last year officials intercepted 38 tons of frozen pangolin carcasses being smuggled into China. That's 38 tons man!! 38000Kg of pangolins... that's a lot of slow-reproducing individuals you see, and naturally of course, the number started to dwindle ages ago..The mammals' plummeting numbers could have nasty side effects, because pangolins perform millions of dollars' worth of pest control. As anteaters, they eat annoying termites and ants and help save your house from collapsing, which of course doesn't happen because you do not have a pet pangolin..

People, there are hundreds of other species listed as threatened or critically endangered.. and I will repeat this again and again; it's time to act or our children will have to acknowledge the existence of the animal via encyclopedias or museums..like the Dodo bird(Discovered 1598, extinct by 1681) and Tasmanian Tiger (extinct 1936)..


Malcolm =)

Always

As always, the same old routine occurred again.
I didn't ask for it, and this time it took mere 3 days.
Sometimes I pride myself for being able to achieve it, but at times it really bothers me. It ended within 30 minutes, and everything was decided. Good, I said..
I hope destiny wouldn't end there.That fall was a disaster, but it managed to spark up a conversation..

Where it all began...as always...

Pantun Tahun Baru

Makan minum tidur berak
semua orang perlu buat
negara kita ekonominya kuat
harap 2010 tetap mantap

Along dan ah beng berkumpul semeja
cakap kosong dan cakap kasar
international student di universiti malaya
jangan jadikan library macam pasar

Seorang diri makan durian
monyet mari rampas durian
parti politik janganlah bermusuhan
agar rakyat hidup aman

tengok bola tengok awek cina
Rooney gol Lampard dapat red kad
Universiti Malaya universiti perdana
jangan sombong kedudukan dah meningkat

Orang jepun jual bahan lucah
orang cina pula sangat bijak
sesetengah orang kurang ilmu pengetahuan
tapi hebat menuntut hak keistimewaan

bangun pagi gosok gigi
cuci muka dan makan roti
rempit rempit mari mari
hidup kita tidak lagi berseri

anak kita tengok tv,
mana tau ada pencuri,
ahli politik tolonglah jimat sedikit
jangan claim allowance untuk sendiri

saya pergi makan ketam
tengah jalan terjumpa Ah Tan
polis trafik dan polis baju hitam
berhenti rasuah baik untuk kesihatan


suratkhabar banyak berita MACC
sebab ada orang sudah mati
tahun baru tahun "er ling yi ling" (2010)
marilah kita bersyukur dalam hati..


=)
Malcolm

2010

The clock just hit 12:01am, and now its year 2010. But nothing really changed. The fan is still spinning, the night is still dark, shits are still smelly, dead people are still dead...

Nothing much really changed. And as I said in my previous post, this damn process happens 24 hours but no one in the world seems to care, until 31st December every year.

Anyway, any new year resolution?
1) study well =)
2) save more money (triple the amount I have now)
3) control my ego
4) be a lovely son
5) kill more ants
6) attend UM convocation

That's all for now~ =)

Malcolm