Just to put this straight, no metaphor, no shits. I'm jus kinda sick cuz I have to bear everything; from getting shame in front of other people to holding up responsibilities which I do not have to bear.
People could see that, and we know it. But I am still stuck in this shit, unable to free myself. Relationship, at times, sucks~ probably I know I aint those social typa guy~ I don't need much frens cuz I, being me, doesn't really like company. So maybe it's time to put it straight. I hate the way people control my life, and I dislike what is going on in my life. Perhaps I should just shut myself in some caves and let go of all my concern; be a jungle man. Be a Hadza~ live without time, and when I'm dead, no one cares~ let me contribute to the nature, cuz I, being a part of nature, have never really done anything to compensate what I've eaten, and all that I wasted; water, electricity.
I don't need people to help me, and because of some people I realized that I'm becoming more resourceful. Being resourceful is not necessarily bad, u know~ sometimes eating your own shit, like a rabbit, is part of what makes me a selfish person.
Selfish I may be~ with Pride rooting deep inside me~ perhaps the appropriate place for me~ is Hell itself. I guess not even the Devil himself could outdo me in terms of pride. for now~ I would say, relationship sucks. Friendship sucks. Team Spirit sucks. I don like to say this, but some times we do hate our parents. and most of the times we hate our boy/girl friend.
I don't want to drag on further. I have stated this long time ago. Putting this in my heart for so long. The burden is becoming overwhelming. Maybe, the best friend for me, are my football boots, my music instruments and my computer. they, for one, never vent their anger at me, and respect me, and yea... they provide comfort and joy and... they make me proud~!
hey you blog!
ReplyDeletewow the last entry so different from the previous few... I guess some days we all feel that way.
anyway, just wanted to say your blog makes me want to watch national geographic! except i dont have that channel... so maybe i'll drop by more often. :) you've got some pretty interesting stuff there. keep it up!
-laurane
wow never thought someone would actually interested at those stuffs. Good tho, love the Earth!
ReplyDelete-Malc
when everyting goes right, one would say the world is so beautiful.
ReplyDeletewhen something goes wrong, we say eveything sucks.
from that suck period, do u think of using that experience to get back ur beautiful world and maintain it ?
when u conscious of diff personalities of people, it'll be better. like girls, when they're emotional, they do not talk with senses, logics or advice. they just nid guys to listen to them.
by u saying everything sucks including saying that ur pride is more than the devil, is what the devil wants u to feel. he's the prosecutor. make u feel guilty, condemned. then due to law of attraction, u keep failing for the same reasons.